The above is my new motto..
After 47 years, I finally am finding ME: ANGIE
Isn’t that crazy to think that all of my life I have felt like I was missing out on life, yet that is really how I have felt..
I was talking to my uncle a few days ago to see if he had received the family pictures I had mailed him.. He was so shocked to see them because he has not seen me in person for almost 9 months. In that nine months I have changed so much with God’s help..
I know that God has slowly been redeeming my life;
healing the past
believing I am worthy
loving my life; changes and all
When I talked on the phone to my uncle, he said that he could not believe the changes in my face, my smile and the way my eyes sparkle..
I guess I have looked at myself in the mirror for so long, I don’t notice the changes like others do..
I believe that God has called me to step out of the past and move forward, yet often that can cause others to think that you are leaving them behind. My life is on a different level than it was even 9 months ago, yet often that moving forward means we have to make decisions in relationships that are difficult, set new goals and require more of others as well as ourselves.
I am not willing to go backwards..
My new mantra is HAPPY IS, HAPPY DOES
Happiness: I am not accustomed to this.. It is strange to be happy..
Isn’t that sad to say??
Growing up, I had times of happiness and times of extreme saddness. UP and DOWN. You never knew what you were going to feel from one day to the next because of the extreme mood swings from my parents.
Happy times but many difficult times as well.
As a child I so desperately wanted a “NORMAL” life like my other friends seemed to have or that my cousins had at their homes. Yet, most often than not, there was no fairy tale at my home.
Material possessions do not equate love..
Today, I am living a life that I never dreamed of having as a child that was full of fear, anxiety and later as an adult agoraphobic..
HAPPY IS, HAPPY DOES..
Today, I want to offer you the freedom to be happy..
It is okay to be happy.
I give you permission to be happy but more importantly, God gives you permission and sent His son to die on the cross for us to have an abundant life John 10:10 (b)..
Don’t allow the enemy to keep you stuck in your past, live with regrets or to lose sight of who God has called you to be.