Life goes on, even when..
What would your even when be?
I could fill that in with many words
But, even when I don’t understand, God does. I may not ever know the reasons why certain circumstances or aspects of life have happened the way they have, but even when I don’t, there is still a plan and purpose.
I may never understand why my grandmother was murdered by my grandfather in 1996. I may never understand why I suffered so many, many years with anxiety, fear and agoraphobia. I may never understand the painful relationships. But God does.
Yet, I have to choose to believe that God will not waste any pain or heartache or joy in the big scheme of His plan for me or my life. I wish I could understand this side of heaven, but I still trust in HIM and HIS plan. I do not claim that this is always easy at times but still I believe it is the best way.
Certainly, in this fallen world, we all face heartaches and struggles, but I can attest that I have often felt beyond God’s reach. I have felt forgotten and alone. Even in the church, I have felt this way. Pushed aside. Lonely and fearful. Afraid to leave my home, yet often afraid of being in my home. A life of an agoraphobic is tragic and painful.
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Sometimes the only answer is:
Lord you are Sovereign. That may be all you can offer now as well. That is enough while you wait for the next step in your journey. He hasn’t forgotten you.
” He who limps still walks.” Stainslaw Lec