Angie Webb

Encouragement

Five Minute Friday

with

Lisa Jo Baker

Today, the word prompt is Encouragment

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Lord, the word encouragement conjures up so many emotions inside of me.

Encouragement is so important and often we forget that it is a vital necessity to the human soul.

We need encouragement to reach for the stars, hope for the best and believe the Lord of the universe has it all under control.

We must have a hand to hold and a shoulder to lean on, cry on, share our deepest hurts but also the same hand to pick us up and encourage us to go again. To move. To believe. To trust.

Encouragement is found in a small card you receive in the mail or a small gift from a sweet friend.

My sweet friend just sent me a handmade necklace she made with her hands. Such a sweet encouragement to know someone loves me…

How about you?

How can you reach out to someone today to offer some sweet encouragement to them?

A card. A phone call. A small gift and note to cheer them on..

A wave and a cheer through the web.

Today, take the time to minister to another with a small or big bit of encouragement. God connects us for a reason.

He loves us and we should love each other.

Colossians 2:2

My goal is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of Gd, namely Christ.

The Past Has No Hold

The Past has no Hold

Other than the lessons it has taught me

and the pain I remember too well.

The Past has no hold

The lessons have been learned in the trenches and deep valleys, yet the lessons have been learned.

Proverbs 1: 5

Let the wise listen and add to their learning, and let the discerning get guidance.

Life often hands us real situations of pain, heartache and loss, yet even in those times we can learn.

One lesson I learned in a particularly trying, painful time was this:

Not everyone can be trusted

How about you?

Have you learned a hard lesson?

Lessons are part of life. We can learn the easy way or the hard way and often God literally has to knock us over the head to make the lesson clear. Our stubbornness can get in the way or often we are waist deep in the “murk” of life we don’t even see a problem. Over time our eyes will adjust along with our heart and the “problem” or lesson will become clear.

I have learned this in so many instances, yet when I mentioned learning that not everyone can be trusted has been a very hard lesson.

I so trusted this person. We had been friends for over 15 years, yet one day I found out that life wasn’t as I had originally thought.

I saw this friendship one way and apparently she saw it a different way.

The reality hit me square in the face one fateful day when something was said that I knew was not part of a healthy relationship. God had opened my eyes and heart to the facts.

The hard facts and a hard lesson.

I felt like I had wasted so much time with this person and now I can look back to see that much of the relationship was very one sided. (mine) She didn’t care about me like I had cared for her.

She wanted my life.

But she didn’t want me..

Only to live vicariously through me.

Over time I could see that she ultimately had ulterior motives which hurt so deeply.

Lessons were learned

But

The past has no hold

The friendships I have today mean more to me than this particular friendship. The friends I have today love me and treasure my heart. Love runs deep between my true friendships.

I cherish the life I have today and the lessons I have learned.

Yet, the past is over and the future is wide open.

Possibilities abound and I am waiting patiently to see where God takes me on this new journey.

Linking up with:

Simply Beth

Jennifer Dukes Lee

Beauty in His Grip

Juana Mikels

My Daily Walk in His Grace

Praying for you today that the past will have no hold on you, other than the lessons you have learned. The past is over and the future is full of possibilites. God has a huge plan for you and for me.

” God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself.”

Hugs XOXO

Beauty Surrounds Me

Beauty Surrounds Me

In the small

In the quiet

In the large

In the loud

Sweet

Loving

Cherished

God ordained mysteries

God ordained
meetings

Love and loss

Tragic and Triumphant

God’s beauty surrounds me in all and everything.

 I must take the time to stop and enjoy this life I have been given by the Creator.

Don’t waste this life.

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Photo Credit:

P. J. Di Benedetto

Goal Setting and the Writer’s Life

Some of my friends have been discussing the process of setting goals for the new year.

Do you find yourself setting goals or resolutions for the new year?

I do this on several different levels; both professionally and personally.

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Each December, I purchase a new journal to begin looking toward the new year. I pray about what I want to accomplish in the new year personally but I also seek God’s will for my life in the area of my professional career. I am a fairly new blogger/author and even though I have written for magazines and other websites, I still have not completed the book I am writing. That is one of the goals I have set for the year of 2014.

I want to focus on the writing of my book and also begin to speak at women’s conferences and churches in the coming year as well.

Working title: When Your Home becomes a Prison: My journey out of fear, anxiety and agoraphobia.

My story is a story that needs to be told and I believe that with a pen and paper in hand, I can make this dream a reality.

Another personal goal I have for the year is to lose some weight. Over the last 5 years, due to medication I have had to take, I have gained about 20 pounds. Not a huge amount but I just feel sluggish at times, so I plan on joining a gym and taking the time to work on myself.

I hope to at least tone up some as well as lose a little weight. Now that I don’t have to take any medication  maybe it will be somewhat easier. I am also joining a boxing club for women. I have attended before with my cousin and loved it.

From a spiritual standpoint, one of my goals is to focus on hearing the still, small voice of God in the everyday. I tend to get so busy and forget to listen.

Goals are helpful but that does mean we should get so focused on the goals, we don’t enjoy the journey.

Hebrews 4:12

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.

God speaks to us through His Word and even in the process of goal setting; We must listen.

Our ultimate goal in this life should be to stay connected to the TRUE ONE who leads, guides and loves us.

As we move toward this new year, let us take the time to remember the places God has taken us from and through, but also seek the will of Him for the next step in our lives.

Captivity

” I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity.”

Jeremiah 29:14

I love this verse in the Bible.  How comforting to know that God will bring us back from the captivity we find ourselves as well as from those who have held us captive.

Captivity according to Dictionary.com:

the state or period of being held, imprisoned, enslaved, or confined.

When I think about the word captivity, I can come up with several scenarios where the word captivity would apply.
Such as:
Being held as a prisioner
Being held as a slave
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But I also think about the lives of many struggling Christians who are being help captive by the enemy. Maybe in small ways but also in huge ways. Think about those you know or maybe think about your own life. What do you struggle to be set free from? Addictions? Sexual Sin? Lying?
Rejection from someone/many? Fear? Anxiety? Agoraphobia? Gambling?
Personally, I can relate to being held captive to something not of my own doing, yet that is exactly where I found myself for over 20 years. Agoraphobia took over my life and became my best friend. I knew what to expect in relation to it, yet the outside world overwhelmed me. Thinking of traveling away from home would cause the panic and anxiety to run full force; way beyond my control. The fear and panic were easily feigned off when I would once again give into the enemies control to hold me captive once again.
This scenario went on and on. Over and over. Never changing much. I would so desperately want to be free from the chains holding me hostage, yet I could see no way out of the depths of fear.
Yet, when I was ready and the Lord was willing to hear my desperate cries, I was set free from all of the chains holding me hostage. Nothing will stop me now. Oh, I won’t lie. Often I can feel the enemy trying to gain his power back again, yet the battle is not over. The enemy will never win this battle.
” Let us break their chains and throw off their shackles. ” Psalm 2:3
The last time we took a family trip to San Antonio, as we were driving home I said, ” Well, little devil, once again you lost that battle.”. That is what I will continue to say, even in the face of fear and anxiety. I will continue to move forward in the call God has placed upon my life to help others struggling with fear, anxiety and agoraphobia, or those who have lost loved ones to suicide or murder, just as I have.
I hope you will read an older post from when I was first set free from fear.
God literally gave me the verse I discuss in the Feeding on Ashes post.
” God called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. ” 1 Peter 2:9
Today, I want to offer you hope that healing can and will come. God has a wonderful plan for your life and that plan includes freedom from captivity and bondage. Don’t settle for anything less than God’s best.

My One Word 2014

I have noticed much of the Internet has been a buzz about choosing a word to focus on for the year. Last year I read the book by Rachel Olsen, which was a great book. She offered some great ideas about listening to God and searching for the “right” word to focus on for the year.

In 2013, I focused on the word FREE. God has done amazing things in my life over the last year and the freedom I enjoy now is like night and day from the previous years. After living with anxiety and panic attacks, as well as agoraphobia most of my life, freedom always seemed elusive, yet over the last year and half, I have seen newness in the everyday.

The simple things of being able to be alone at home or driving the store alone, or going to Wal-Mart alone all seem like such simple things to others, yet they were so very difficult for me in the past. The freedom God has given me is so sweet and I am forever thankful.

The past few weeks I have been praying about the one word that I want to focus on and have several that felt like the “right” ones but then over time, it seemed that God was leading me in a new direction.

For about 18 months, there has been a very close relationship of mine that has been severed and often seemed beyond repair. My God has bigger plans though and this coming year I am going to focus on the word:

LOVE

Love

I want all I do to be done in love. I want every relationship I have to be seen through the filter of love; both mine and the Lord’s. I know God has brought me to a new place in my life as well as the relationships I currently have, but through the year of 2014, I want to have a deeper love for those God sends my way as well as the relationships I already have. I truly believe that the Lord is able to repair the severed relationship and when He does, I will once again have another wonderful testimony to tell others. Nothing is beyond God’s reach and this is the prayer of my heart for the coming year.

Psalm 107:2

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story- those He redeemed from the hand of the foe.

Just wait. It is going to happen. I know deep down in my heart.

Love connects

Love can restore and repair

Love is the ultimate sacrifice

Help me Lord to love others as well as myself as you want me to. Help the blinders to come off and see the wounds and the pain of others hearts. Help me to not be cold and distant, but warm and loving. You are the guiding force in my life everyday and I ask you to continue to lead me down the roads you have for me and to open the doors that need to be opened. Heal the pain of broken relationships and help us to bind to each others hearts as you have called us to do.

LOVE

Psalm 23: 6

Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

New Dreams

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As a child, I loved to write in my journal or diary all of the dreams I had for myself and my life.

Some of them have been achieved, yet over time God has given me new dreams to achieve.

I always dreamed as a child of being a wife and mother, which has come true. As a child, I never really dreamed of being a grandmother, but I am also one of those as well. Life is pretty sweet.

The biggest dream I had as a child was to be a writer. My life revolved around writing whether it be in a diary or studying the encyclopedia’s as I made notations of interesting facts, the writing with pen and paper has always been part of my heart. The joy I felt as a child having the written words from my heart on a piece of paper..

Oh the joy of the written word. I still feel that way 40 years later.

My heart is full when I see that what I write helps someone else, even in a small way.

We are looking forward to a new year. It is hard to believe that we are going to be headed into 2014. Where has the time gone?

Today, I want to offer you hope that this new year is a clean slate to reach for new dreams. Reach to the sky and seek the fullest life you can ever dream of. Life can be a blast. The dreams we have in our hearts are put there from our God.

Remember the dreams of past years but also reach for new dreams.

Let me pray for you today:

Lord, help us to reach for the stars. Nothing is out of reach with you walking beside us and guiding us on the journey of life. Today, Lord reignite the fire within us for the dreams that have fallen away but also help us to reach for new dreams in the new year. Lord, thank You for all that you have done for each of us in 2013. I stand in awe of all the amazing life changes You have done in my life personally. I am looking forward to 2014 and the amazing doors that You are going to open for me.

Coming Soon:

January 10th 2014

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Suffering

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Sometimes I feel like I am barely holding on. Life has been very difficult for me and my family the last month.

Our family has had several illnesses as well as Thanksgiving somewhere in between. Life has been a challenge because no one has felt well, yet life continues to move forward even when we beg for it to stop.

I really just need a break from life. I haven’t felt well, plus I have been very tired and not sleeping well, then on top of that I just feel very alone.

Lost and lonely.

Tired and stressed.

Hurt and down.

Life just has not been easy for me. I try to be encouraging on this blog, but often I just need an encouraging word myself. Someone to walk beside me, holding my hand in the times of pain.

This past week we lost my mother-in-law after her battle for the last 3 1/2 years. She is no longer in pain, yet the struggle has just begun for some in the family. I have been married to her son for 30 years, but even in that situation, it is still not easy for anyone to lose a loved one; especially at Christmas time.

I am just feeling overwhelmed. The holidays have not been working out as I had hoped. Many of my plans have fallen through or I have just ran out of time. I wanted to make some candy but the weather and time did not permit it to happen. I think this is the first year in 30 years of marriage that I have not made holiday candy for my family and friends.

I haven’t had time to do many things I had wanted to do; but then there is always next year.

If you think about it, would you please pray for me?

I am really struggling right now with many issues. I just need a break, so for the next week I will not be online much. Please do not forget me or my blog.

After January 10th, I will have a brand new website design, which I am excited to make “live” soon. Please check back.

Hugs to each of my readers.

Merry Christmas from The Webb’s

Christmas 2013 Letter

The year has some amazing experiences that I have never experienced after years of living with anxiety, fear and agoraphobia.

One was a new job in retail that later led to being promoted to Part Time Assistant Manager. This job was a new experience because it required me traveling to a new area for the job as well as working and driving at night, which I had not done for many years. I learned a lot from this time as a PT Assistant Manager but I also learned that I am stronger than I originally thought I was.

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The time I spent at Cato was a great experience in many ways, but also very stressful. I am thankful for the lessons I learned.

After all of the years of not traveling due to my anxiety and agoraphobia, we made a trip this year to San Antonio and Austin with some friends. It was a great experience and I got to see much of the state of Texas that I had not seen before. We had a great time shopping, sight seeing and eating lots of food. Good times. I have now made 4 trips out of town on short and long trips. Some have been a few hours away but others have been up to 9 hours from home. So, needless to say, God has done a tremendous work in my life over the last 2 years.

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I love this picture of Mike and I on the River Walk in San Antonio. I had always wanted to visit there, but never had until this year. Great memories. sanantonionMike and I have owned our own business for the last 3 years, which is doing really well. Mike has a great customer base and great customer service. He is very well liked in our community, which has a great impact on his business as well. In about 5 years Mike can retire from his full-time job and his plan is just to focus on Texas Overhead Door & Construction.

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The best part of the year was celebrating 30 years of marriage to Mike. We married in 1983 at the age of 16 years old (M) and 18 years old (A). No one thought we would even make it one year, so I guess our love was more powerful than most thought.

30th anniversary

God has done a tremendous work in both of our lives over the last 30 years. We have walked beside each other through loss of his brother to suicide, the murder/suicide of my grandparents, death of parents and loss of other meaningful relationships. It is a great testament to our love when each day we still hold hands and kiss each other hello and goodbye. 30 years .. We are more than friends or lovers. We are best friends.

Merry Christmas from the Webb’s

May God richly bless you in the coming year.

Year in Review

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A year of beauty but also a year of pain.

That has been my life.

Relationships fail

Pain is inflicted; whether intentional or unintentional

Harm is done that cannot be forgetten

Things will change whether we want them to or not.

But one thing that will never change is the power of God in our lives.

I am finally free.

Free from anxiety, fear and agoraphobia.

God has changed my life in so many ways.

Confidence

Self-Esteem

Love

Faith

Hope

Joy

Peace

And FREEDOM

Finally Free