BIG LIFE

Which road are you on?

Are you living in the past

or are you living in the present?

As Christians we are given paths to choose in many different situations. We have to face decisions on many different aspects of life from the employment opportunities we have, to whom to marry all the way to where to live and how many children to have.

But we have other decisions to make as well.

Personally, a big choice we need to face head on is whether we are going to go down the road of dwelling on the past or are we going to face today, head on and live in the present?

It is easy to go back and live in the past, but what does that accomplish?

Often it only brings pain and heartache, but it can offer us hope and healing as well, yet we are not to sit down in the ashes of the past…

and stay and stay..

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The Lord wants our lives to be full of promise and certainly full of love, hope and healing.
Sometimes we have to sit for a bit..

But then it is time to face the present, all the while learning the lessons from the past.

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Today

Be strong

Live free

and

Face the past

But now we must move..

What dream do you have for your life?

Take time to write your goals down

Stretch your mind and write.. write.. write

nothing is too crazy or off limits.

God can perform above anything we can ask or imagine.

God can do anything, you know – far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. Ephesians 3:26 MSG

I believe we can learn from the past, but oh my, what the present holds for us as well as the future…

Wow. The possibilities

God has huge plans for us as His children, but often we get in our own way. We want to stay stuck and connected to the past, all the while the present is passing us by.

I lived this way for many years while I struggled with fear, anxiety and agoraphobia.

Yet, God had a bigger plan for me than I had for myself.

Freedom was mine after more than 20 years of living with fear.

In August 2012..

The present became mine while the past faded away.

Doors were opened and I began to walk through them, all the while listening to the still, small voice of the LORD.

He has led me and held my hand each and every step.

Often it has been a day to day process, but other times the freedom has been easily found. The enemy continued to try to pull me back into the past but I knew the

Present and Future

are mine.

I want to offer you hope.

Nothing is lost with the LORD. Yes, you may need to look at the past to learn some lessons and find healing, but please do not stay there. Don’t sit in the ashes.

Step out today and LIVE.

and LIVE BIG

Take a long, hard look. See how great he is – infinite, greater than anything you could ever imagine or figure out! Job 36:26 MSG

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Moving Forward

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Wednesday, I fasted and prayed.

I believe God heard my prayers, so now I must wait.

The battle has been long and difficult, but I am not going to give up or give into the enemies lies.
My God did not set me free so that I could go back into the darkness again.

He called me to heal the brokenhearted and to offer hope to those in a place of darkness.

So, now I must move forward with the call God has placed on my life.

It won’t be easy because I know that each step I take forward, the enemy is waiting in the wings to want me to go two steps back.

Not going to happen.

This girl has faced more in her life than most will ever be able to comprehend, yet I am a fighter, an over-comer and a believer that no matter what happens, my God is ultimately in control.

Today I stand on the promises and wait for the answers.

There are lives and hearts at stake but God sees it all and understands exactly the anguish my heart is in, but it will not be for nothing.

My testimony will once again be for the LORD and HIS work in my life.

Moving Forward, but waiting.

Your Assignment

Your Assignment

Do you ever question what you are here on earth to do?

I know I have wondered that more often than I care to admit, but I have decided that I must live in the here and now all the while trying to find my calling from God..

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Yet, when we question what God has called then we are basically saying that God has made a mistake and messed up when He called us to the assignment we have..
Whether that is:
being a mom
being a hard worker at the job I have
being a prayer warrior
cleaning someone else’s home
being an author or blogger
leading a church as a pastor or youth minister
driving a school bus
working at a daycare

If we are questioning our current assignment then God will not call us to any other assignment. We will stay exactly where we are at in this time and place.. Nothing will change. We will stay frustrated, upset and wondering why nothing changes.

Our hearts must change first
and then God will direct us onto the next assignment or open doors to open in our current place of assignment.

Your assignment will always cause other to succeed and your assignment will always require you to go places you never dreamed of going. DREAM BIG
Your assignment will cause you to be celebrated; not tolerated. Luke 9:5

Your assignment will require wisdom.

Wisdom is obtained in two ways:
Mentors
Experiences/Mistakes

Wisdom is not something we are born with and nor are we born qualified for our assignment. There will be bumps in the road and bruises along the way, yet that does not mean we stop striving to fulfill the God ordained assignment God has given us to do in this life.

WE ONLY LIVE ONCE, SO MAKE IT A GOOD ONE

Our assignment is something only we can accomplish.

Our assignment will require us to solve problems only we can solve.
Our assignment will require us to help others only we can help.
Our assignment will require us to be love to someone else that maybe no one else acknowledges.
Our assignment will require PAIN, PASSION and PURPOSE.

Lord, today I want to offer hope for those wondering exactly what their purpose is for today. You know our hearts and you also know our desire to be worthy of your call on our lives. Help us today to not waste the time we have remaining and also do not let us lose hope in the call you have on our lives. We all have a purpose and an assignment from you. Let us stay strong and finish well.. We must stay focused and faithful in the small.. Lord, help me to remember that I am not where I used to be but I am also not where I want to be. Thank You for the wonderful gifts you have provided for my family in the last year on all levels. We are praising You. Thankful..

Small beginnings, BIG LIFE

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Small beginnings; that is how my life began. Tragedy, heartache, loss, rejection and pain were always pulling at the hem of my pants, wanting me to sit down and wallow in them, yet for some unknown reason to me, I have survived.

I have survived abuse, both physical and emotional. I have survived rejection from as early as two years old by my parents.. I was a “PROBLEM”… I have survived a painful childhood full of loneliness, fear, panic, abandonment as well as neglect. I survived a horrible car wreck that almost took my life as well as another persons life. I survived a teenage pregnancy with no family support. I survived raising a young child while I was still a child myself. I survived all the normal, everyday challenges of being a wife, mother and follower of Christ. I survived three suicides in my family as well as the murder of my grandmother. I survived a life of being married to a police officer husband, who daily risks his life for our community. I have survived many nights alone. I have survived our home being broken into while I was home asleep at night. I have survived years and years of fear, anxiety and eventually agoraphobia…

YET, YOU KNOW WHAT//… SURVIVING ISN’T ENOUGH.. I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE SO OTHERS KNOW THAT JESUS HEALS, FORGIVES AND RESTORES. I WANT TO LIVE A LIFE THAT IS FULL OF HAPPINESS, JOY, PEACE AND FORGIVENESS, WHICH IS ULTIMATELY THE BEST REVENGE FOR A LIFE THAT STARTED OFF SMALL AND PAINFUL.. THE ENEMY WANTS TO KEEP US BOUND TO OUR PAST. BOUND TO OUR FEARS. BOUND TO OUR LOSSES. BOUND TO THOSE THAT HOLD US CAPTIVE BY THEIR WORDS OF REJECTION, CONDEMNATION OR SHAME.. YET….

GOD HAS SHOWN ME A LIFE BIGGER THAN I COULD HAVE EVER IMAGINED FOR MYSELF. And I am so, so thankful for HIS mercies, which are new every morning. Lamentations 3:23. He has an awesome plan for me and for you as well, yet we must walk out the path He has laid before us. That means healing the wounds of the past, finding forgiveness in our hearts and allowing Him to restore what has been lost due to the enemy. I wake up everyday amazed at the place I am in my life today.

A year ago, I could not even stay alone at night or drive across town alone. Yet, now I have a part time job working at the school as a subsitute teacher. I can drive anywhere I need alone or stay home alone. We have had two vacations as a family, which we have not done in over 10 years. I look forward to the days ahead and I am thankful for the lessons the past has taught me..

One lesson I have learned: I AM STRONGER THAN I THOUGHT AND WORTH GODS LOVE EVEN THOUGH I NEVER BELIEVED I WAS.

How about you? What are you learning in this life you are living? Are you living a life full of Gods love and power or are you sitting on the sidelines waiting for HIM to do something? Well, HE is waiting on you to believe, trust and step out.

Today, I want to offer you hope. If you asked my husband or children, they would tell you that the person I am today did not exsist a year ago. Oh, deep down I am still the same mom and wife who loves them dearly, yet there is a God confidence that I never had before. A belief in myself. A belief that I am good enough just by being myself. I pray you find that place in your own life and heart as well.

I would love to connect with others that have struggled with feelings of worthlessness, anxiety, panic or fear of any kind.

Before I would have said I SUFFER from anxiety, fear and agoraphobia. NOW, I can say I previously suffered from anxiety, fear and agoraphobia. And I can’t wait until our next trip. It will be to celebrate 30 years of marriage to my wonderful, supportive husband.. GOd is good… HUGS to you all

Enjoying The Journey

Most of my life, I have lived in the shadow of fear, anxiety and agoraphobia. But God has done a tremendous work in my life over the last two years and I am so enjoying the journey of this new path I am currently walking with Him.
Finding new things that I enjoy have been such a rewarding experience. I have always loved reading, studying new subjects, doing Bible Studies and keeping my home, family and relationships well-tended, but through this new journey I am realizing that I also enjoy many other things.

Recently, I began trying my hand at acrylic painting, which I have never done before. My grandmother who was murdered in 1996 was a very talented oil painting artist, and I really had never thought of trying my hand at this craft, but wow… So fulfilling and I think I am pretty good for a beginner. I have done about 5 paintings so far and even given a few paintings to friends and family. I am no expert or anyone that creates masterpieces, yet I am truly enjoying the learning process. It helps me think and de-stress.

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( Two of my first paintings)
I have also learned that my house will not fall apart if it is not spotless. Often, my OCD kicks in and I feel like even one small speck of dirt is so, so wrong, yet I am working to gain a sense of freedom in letting IT GO.. I still like to have a well-kept home that feels welcoming and homey, yet I want to enjoy my life as well. Being fanatical about housework and a spotless house is not enjoyable to me anymore. I have so, so much more to learn, experience and see after 15 years of living an agoraphobic lifestyle.. NOW is all I have. I am not guaranteed tomorrow.

I have also learned that I have a story to tell and tell it I must. It has been cathartic to tell of my struggle with anxiety, fear and agoraphobia as well as my childhood abuse and neglect. I truly believe that God has used my brokenness and pain to speak to others and for that, I am forever thankful. Of course, I wish I had not had to go through so much pain and tragedies in my life, but I know that God has never left me nor turned His back on me. Each step I have taken in this journey of life has been all for Him and His glory.

I am by no means a perfect person in any form or fashion, yet I have a perfect God who loves me unconditionally. I hope you will look to Him for your total acceptance and love as well. He will not let you down even when others fail us.
This journey has been such an amazing ride, and often scary at times. Lately though, I can honestly say it has been so much fun..
Looking forward to the next part of this amazing ride God has called me to experience with HIM.

Angie Webb has been married to her high school sweetheart since they were in high school. Now, 30 years later they are more in love than ever. Angie and her husband have two grown sons and three grandchildren. Angie can be found writing a bi-monthly column at Heartbeat The Magazine, http://www.heartbeatthemagazine.com called Angie’s Insights. Angie also has an author page at Joyful Journey by Angie Webb on Facebook. You can also connect with her through Twitter at Angiewebb65.