Freedom

Which road are you on?

Are you living in the past

or are you living in the present?

As Christians we are given paths to choose in many different situations. We have to face decisions on many different aspects of life from the employment opportunities we have, to whom to marry all the way to where to live and how many children to have.

But we have other decisions to make as well.

Personally, a big choice we need to face head on is whether we are going to go down the road of dwelling on the past or are we going to face today, head on and live in the present?

It is easy to go back and live in the past, but what does that accomplish?

Often it only brings pain and heartache, but it can offer us hope and healing as well, yet we are not to sit down in the ashes of the past…

and stay and stay..

Why would we want to give up our present for pieces of the past?  Click to Tweet

The Lord wants our lives to be full of promise and certainly full of love, hope and healing.
Sometimes we have to sit for a bit..

But then it is time to face the present, all the while learning the lessons from the past.

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Today

Be strong

Live free

and

Face the past

But now we must move..

What dream do you have for your life?

Take time to write your goals down

Stretch your mind and write.. write.. write

nothing is too crazy or off limits.

God can perform above anything we can ask or imagine.

God can do anything, you know – far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. Ephesians 3:26 MSG

I believe we can learn from the past, but oh my, what the present holds for us as well as the future…

Wow. The possibilities

God has huge plans for us as His children, but often we get in our own way. We want to stay stuck and connected to the past, all the while the present is passing us by.

I lived this way for many years while I struggled with fear, anxiety and agoraphobia.

Yet, God had a bigger plan for me than I had for myself.

Freedom was mine after more than 20 years of living with fear.

In August 2012..

The present became mine while the past faded away.

Doors were opened and I began to walk through them, all the while listening to the still, small voice of the LORD.

He has led me and held my hand each and every step.

Often it has been a day to day process, but other times the freedom has been easily found. The enemy continued to try to pull me back into the past but I knew the

Present and Future

are mine.

I want to offer you hope.

Nothing is lost with the LORD. Yes, you may need to look at the past to learn some lessons and find healing, but please do not stay there. Don’t sit in the ashes.

Step out today and LIVE.

and LIVE BIG

Take a long, hard look. See how great he is – infinite, greater than anything you could ever imagine or figure out! Job 36:26 MSG

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Imagine Freedom

Imagine freedom from fear or anxiety.

What does it look like in your mind?

Have you ever experienced that before?

Freedom is possible with God. Personally, I know the struggle you may be facing today. You feel like the freedom you so desperately want is just out of reach or God only has that for someone else.

We tend to believe the lies of the enemy instead of looking at the wonderful aspects of our lives that God has given us on a daily basis.

I understand.

I did the same thing for so long. I doubted His love for me, even though I could look around and see all the beautiful aspects of my life.

Yet, the one aim of my life seemed so out of reach.

Freedom from fear, anxiety and agoraphobia was nowhere to be found; or so it seemed.

Real difficulties can be overcome, it is only the imaginary ones that are unconquerable. Click to Tweet

Nothing is impossible with God, even when we doubt or feel unworthy.

Luke 1:37 For with God nothing is impossible.

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God has a plan, even when we don’t understand. After all of my struggles, I have a story to tell. Our stories help others know that they are not alone.

Share your story here today. What has God healed your from or helped you overcome?

Nothing is lost.

Let me pray for you:

Lord, nothing is lost in your sight. You know the beginning and the end of our lives. We have pain but that can be used for your glory if we follow your leading. I pray that anyone that is struggling today, that they can find a sense of peace by listening for your voice. You speak and we listen. Help us to quiet ourselves. Help us to seek your face and to see the wonder in even the small freedoms we have.

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Messy Marriage

Restless for More

My heart is restless for more

More freedom

More dreams

More hope

More love

More

What are you restless for?

I love this quote

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Our hearts will always be restless until we rest in HIM.

Our lives are in unrest because we live in a fallen world, full of pain, heartache and tragedy, yet God has more.

When we rest in Him and His love, our restless heart and soul will be a peace.

The world can abound in unrest, but our lives will be at peace.

Over the last year and half, I have found myself more at peace and less restless than I have in many years.

Yet, that doesn’t stop the natural tendency to want to have more of this life God has given us to live.

And I plan to live big..

Full of love, freedom, hope and dreams.

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Love

If the son sets you free, you are truly free. John 8:32

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More of HIM so I am less RESTLESS.

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Captivity

” I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity.”

Jeremiah 29:14

I love this verse in the Bible.  How comforting to know that God will bring us back from the captivity we find ourselves as well as from those who have held us captive.

Captivity according to Dictionary.com:

the state or period of being held, imprisoned, enslaved, or confined.

When I think about the word captivity, I can come up with several scenarios where the word captivity would apply.
Such as:
Being held as a prisioner
Being held as a slave
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But I also think about the lives of many struggling Christians who are being help captive by the enemy. Maybe in small ways but also in huge ways. Think about those you know or maybe think about your own life. What do you struggle to be set free from? Addictions? Sexual Sin? Lying?
Rejection from someone/many? Fear? Anxiety? Agoraphobia? Gambling?
Personally, I can relate to being held captive to something not of my own doing, yet that is exactly where I found myself for over 20 years. Agoraphobia took over my life and became my best friend. I knew what to expect in relation to it, yet the outside world overwhelmed me. Thinking of traveling away from home would cause the panic and anxiety to run full force; way beyond my control. The fear and panic were easily feigned off when I would once again give into the enemies control to hold me captive once again.
This scenario went on and on. Over and over. Never changing much. I would so desperately want to be free from the chains holding me hostage, yet I could see no way out of the depths of fear.
Yet, when I was ready and the Lord was willing to hear my desperate cries, I was set free from all of the chains holding me hostage. Nothing will stop me now. Oh, I won’t lie. Often I can feel the enemy trying to gain his power back again, yet the battle is not over. The enemy will never win this battle.
” Let us break their chains and throw off their shackles. ” Psalm 2:3
The last time we took a family trip to San Antonio, as we were driving home I said, ” Well, little devil, once again you lost that battle.”. That is what I will continue to say, even in the face of fear and anxiety. I will continue to move forward in the call God has placed upon my life to help others struggling with fear, anxiety and agoraphobia, or those who have lost loved ones to suicide or murder, just as I have.
I hope you will read an older post from when I was first set free from fear.
God literally gave me the verse I discuss in the Feeding on Ashes post.
” God called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. ” 1 Peter 2:9
Today, I want to offer you hope that healing can and will come. God has a wonderful plan for your life and that plan includes freedom from captivity and bondage. Don’t settle for anything less than God’s best.

Step Out Today

Risk Requires Trust

Do you Trust God enough to handle whatever you are facing?

It is hard to face change, especially when we get so accustomed to having things a certain way.

We wake up the same time everyday and we go to bed the same time.

We eat the same food for breakfast and we drive the same route to work.

All of that is perfectly fine, but how about today we take a chance and risk doing something different today.

Go a different route to work. Eat something different for breakfast.

Change is necessary and so is

RISK

Risking is difficult as well. I know personally how difficult it is to RISK and CHANGE.

After years of living with fear, anxiety and agoraphobia…

I am now FREE.

God set me free in August 2012

Risking is possible

Change is necessary

and

Freedom is Possible

Today, take a chance to make a change in your everyday life but also take RISK to get FREE from whatever is holding you back.

Freedom is sweet and God is amazing.

What is your story?

Are you ready to RISK and CHANGE?

Step Out Today and LIVE BIG FOR GOD

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New Dreams

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As a child, I loved to write in my journal or diary all of the dreams I had for myself and my life.

Some of them have been achieved, yet over time God has given me new dreams to achieve.

I always dreamed as a child of being a wife and mother, which has come true. As a child, I never really dreamed of being a grandmother, but I am also one of those as well. Life is pretty sweet.

The biggest dream I had as a child was to be a writer. My life revolved around writing whether it be in a diary or studying the encyclopedia’s as I made notations of interesting facts, the writing with pen and paper has always been part of my heart. The joy I felt as a child having the written words from my heart on a piece of paper..

Oh the joy of the written word. I still feel that way 40 years later.

My heart is full when I see that what I write helps someone else, even in a small way.

We are looking forward to a new year. It is hard to believe that we are going to be headed into 2014. Where has the time gone?

Today, I want to offer you hope that this new year is a clean slate to reach for new dreams. Reach to the sky and seek the fullest life you can ever dream of. Life can be a blast. The dreams we have in our hearts are put there from our God.

Remember the dreams of past years but also reach for new dreams.

Let me pray for you today:

Lord, help us to reach for the stars. Nothing is out of reach with you walking beside us and guiding us on the journey of life. Today, Lord reignite the fire within us for the dreams that have fallen away but also help us to reach for new dreams in the new year. Lord, thank You for all that you have done for each of us in 2013. I stand in awe of all the amazing life changes You have done in my life personally. I am looking forward to 2014 and the amazing doors that You are going to open for me.

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Year in Review

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A year of beauty but also a year of pain.

That has been my life.

Relationships fail

Pain is inflicted; whether intentional or unintentional

Harm is done that cannot be forgetten

Things will change whether we want them to or not.

But one thing that will never change is the power of God in our lives.

I am finally free.

Free from anxiety, fear and agoraphobia.

God has changed my life in so many ways.

Confidence

Self-Esteem

Love

Faith

Hope

Joy

Peace

And FREEDOM

Finally Free

Keep Walking

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Photo Credit:

P. J. Di Benedetto

When we learned to walk as a baby, it was tough at times. We often fell down, cried or even through a fit, but over time we still learned to walk.

Our parents would offer us help and encouragement, but even that couldn’t teach us how to walk. Walking just basically required us “doing” the work to learn the process. One step at a time. Then one day we were walking more than a few step at a time and before long we were running with other children. Walking isn’t something we knew when we were born, but through trial and error, we eventually learned the steps to becoming more independent.

Now, when we think about the Christian walk. It is basically the same process. We don’t have any clue how to face the struggles life hands us, but over time we learn to use our faith even in the deepest pits of life. No life is a bowl of cherries. We all face hardships, difficulties and pain in this life;whether of our own doing or someone else’s. Life can hand us pain unimaginable at times. I know in my own life, I can certainly attest to that.

As a child I never knew how much pain I was carrying around because it seemed normal. Yet, over time the shoving the pain down began to manifest itself in the way of anxiety, fear, and eventually agoraphobia. This certainly was not the life I dreamed of as a child. Life became unbearable, yet I saw no way out. The roller coaster only intensified after the murder/suicide of my grandparents.

I am giving you that example because I can certainly relate to trials, pain and tragedies, yet over time I had to learn that my life wasn’t going to change unless I changed.

Changed my thoughts

Changed how I let the past control me

Changed relationships and the power they held

Began to trust and believe in myself

I can never change the pain of the past, the loss of loved ones to horrible tragedies, but I have learned that I must

Keep Walking

Even when it is hard

Even when the path is unclear

Even when the naysayers are loud

Even when the end seems so far away

Nothing in life is easy and usually the sweetest accomplishments are the hardest fought.

Praying for you today to feel God’s love and His peace. He has a wonderful plan for you. Love to each of you.

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FREE: Follow up on my word for 2013

The end of last year, I made a choice to focus on the word FREE for the year of 2013.

Needless to say, the ride has been both exciting and nerve wracking at times.

God has done a tremendous work in a once fearful, anxious and also agoraphobic woman.

I still have many strides to make in this journey out of fear, but I am so very thankful for the place I am currently in.

Two years ago, I could not even ride in a vehicle without having full blown panic attacks and totally be in a state of fear. I also had not had a vacation out of town in over 10 years, but the last two years my family and I have traveled on four different trips. We have made memories, visited family and put the enemy in his place.

That has been the sweetest part:

Putting the enemy in his place

He has no power over me and my freedom any longer.

For years, I lived my life believing the fear would always be part of my life but God has totally healed me from the fear, anxiety and agoraphobia. I still have a few goals to meet in the new life I have now, but I know God will walk with me just as He has each day.

I look forward to the next step God has planned for me.

I am thankful for the freedom I currently have, yet I know with God all things are possible.

Thankful for being FREE

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Free from:

Anxiety

Fear

Agoraphobia

Past Dysfunctional Relationships

Self-Hatred

Self-Doubt

Believing the Worst

Today I am THANKFUL

Ragged Edges

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Ragged Edges

Pieces of the past

Falling Away

Slowly, one day at a time

Nothing is off limits

God is restoring

God is moving

God is ABLE

For years, I lived a life that just was down right unhappy. Not unhappy because of my husband or children, but unhappy because my life was so limited because of fear, anxiety and agoraphobia. Life became enclosed by the four walls of my house and the dependence I had on others to feel “safe”. My life never felt secure or normal, even though I had a great life with a wonderful husband and children, yet something was always missing.

Today, I can see how the ragged edges of my past have fallen away more and more over the last two years. The last year has been life changing.

The edges are almost all gone.

Life is wonderful. Peace is present. Self acceptance is mine.

Freedom is Sweet.

I am not claiming to have it all figured out, but I do know that if God did this for me

Anything is Possible Matthew 19:26

Lord, I thank you for giving me a life full of possibilities. Nothing is beyond your scope of repair, restore, renew. I am a living testament of your power in the life of a believer. Without You, Lord I would be lost, alone and fear bound but through your saving grace and wonderful healing touch, I am free. I am forever thankful and I will continue to give my testimony as long as I live. My life will never be the same. The walls are no longer keeping me captive. Now the windows and doors are open to FREEDOM and JOY. You have called me to a new place and I am ready for the next step. Move now Lord.

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