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To Walk in Love

Love

To Walk in Love

Father, in Jesus’ name, I thank You that the love of God has been poured forth in my heart and life through the Holy Spirit. I love Your Word and without it, I would be lost. The love You have for me, Lord has perfected and completed me and I am thankful that I can say ” Perfect love casts out all fear. “

Today, Lord I am committing to walk in love that only can come from you. I endure long and I will be patient and kind. I will not be envious and allow the worldly jealousy to take over my mind and heart. I will not be boastful nor will I behave in a manner that would be considered rude or unbecoming. You have total control over me and the words I speak from this point forward. Keep my heart and mind in check, but more importantly, keep my words in line with You and Your Word.

I will not take account of any evil done to me and I will not pay attention to the suffering I will endure. You will repay evil and restore all that has been lost in my life due to the evil others have done. You will restore over and over to me. I will continue to persevere in my life and the freedom you have given me after years of living with anxiety and fear. The past will have no power over me or my family any longer. We are set free from the past and the shame others have tried to lay at our feet and upon our heads, hearts and minds.

We are overcome with the power of the blood and the words of our mouths.

Father, I will bless and pray for those who persecute me- and who are cruel in their attitude toward me. I bless them and do not curse them. You are in charge of the outcome of them and their lives. My love will abound more and more through You and the Holy Spirit working in my life.

Everywhere I will go I commit to plant seeds of love. I thank You, Father, for preparing the hearts of those that I will encounter that they will be prepared to receive my love. Prepare their hearts. Guide me to those in need of love today.

Restore

Repair

Refocus

Relationships

Lord, today and everyday, guide me and help me to stay on track to love others as You have called me to do.

Beauty Surrounds Me

Beauty Surrounds Me

In the small

In the quiet

In the large

In the loud

Sweet

Loving

Cherished

God ordained mysteries

God ordained
meetings

Love and loss

Tragic and Triumphant

God’s beauty surrounds me in all and everything.

 I must take the time to stop and enjoy this life I have been given by the Creator.

Don’t waste this life.

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P. J. Di Benedetto

Love; My Word for 2014

Love requires action as well as patience. I often forget the last part of that sentence. Yet, when I decided to focus on the word LOVE for 2014, I want to remember that God loves me, so I need to love others with the same type of love.

This is often hard because I am human. I am certainly not perfect, nor am I GOD; the one and only creator of the universe. I am a flawed human being, who makes mistakes every day of my life. I tend to lose my temper too easily and often expect perfection of those in my life, yet I need to remember that these same folks are patient, loving and offer me grace on a daily basis.

I remember as a young mom I would fret and fret about trying to keep my house looking “perfect” which was almost impossible with two sons running around. I would beat myself up because the “perfect” I so wanted and dreamed of seemed to be impossible to obtain. I was often way too hard on my boys and made many mistakes in this situation as well as others. No person is a perfect parent either and I certainly know that I made huge mistakes. Things I regret. Things I wish I could take back. But all I can do is ask for forgiveness and apologize. Lessons are often hard learned.

Lessons in love are often hard learned.

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Growing up in a dysfunctional, none affectionate home, love was something I could not quiet comprehend, which also led to many hard lessons as a mother and wife.

Love was something I feared in many ways, yet so desperately wanted in my life. I wanted to experience the love of children and for my children to feel loved. To never doubt my love for them, but in many ways I failed. Life has a way of creeping in and causing the past to weave it’s way into the present. The past could not be held at bay any longer. The choices of those who committed suicide or took the life of my grandmother in a suicide/murder affected all of the family. Love was still an underlying presence but it was not the focus as it should have been. Life was hard and the road was rocky. Filled with stickers and lots of bumps, yet through it all the love I had for my husband and children never changed. It had always been in my heart, yet the enemy had used the painful circumstances to get my eyes focused on the hurt instead of the wonderful blessings I was privileged to have as part of my life.

Love is a word that is so full of meaning and often means different things to different folks.

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I want to be remembered as a woman, wife, mother and grandmother who never let the painful past to hold her down, nor allowed the enemy to continue to severe relationships that are meant to be for life.

The enemy will not be able to win this battle. LOVE will prevail and the lives of those torn away will be redeemed and restored. Relationships will win and the love I have for my family will always persevere.

God has a beautiful plan for LOVE in the lives of believers.

We must seek HIM and the plan HE has for our lives.

The plan HE has for my life is:
Restored relationships

Love abounding

and that the past will no longer have any power over my life or the lives of my family.

We are overcomers and the LORD has called us to be a family.

I pray that whatever you are facing today will not keep you bound to the past. Look to the Lord and always remember that if He calls you to it, He will help your through it. Life can be challenging at times but just because you are in a battle today does not mean that tomorrow the Lord can turn everything around. God is so powerful and He has such a blessed life for us as His children. Please don’t give up on the problem or challenge you are facing today. Continue to seek HIM and HIS plan. He will line it all up and everything will come together.

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My One Word 2014

I have noticed much of the Internet has been a buzz about choosing a word to focus on for the year. Last year I read the book by Rachel Olsen, which was a great book. She offered some great ideas about listening to God and searching for the “right” word to focus on for the year.

In 2013, I focused on the word FREE. God has done amazing things in my life over the last year and the freedom I enjoy now is like night and day from the previous years. After living with anxiety and panic attacks, as well as agoraphobia most of my life, freedom always seemed elusive, yet over the last year and half, I have seen newness in the everyday.

The simple things of being able to be alone at home or driving the store alone, or going to Wal-Mart alone all seem like such simple things to others, yet they were so very difficult for me in the past. The freedom God has given me is so sweet and I am forever thankful.

The past few weeks I have been praying about the one word that I want to focus on and have several that felt like the “right” ones but then over time, it seemed that God was leading me in a new direction.

For about 18 months, there has been a very close relationship of mine that has been severed and often seemed beyond repair. My God has bigger plans though and this coming year I am going to focus on the word:

LOVE

Love

I want all I do to be done in love. I want every relationship I have to be seen through the filter of love; both mine and the Lord’s. I know God has brought me to a new place in my life as well as the relationships I currently have, but through the year of 2014, I want to have a deeper love for those God sends my way as well as the relationships I already have. I truly believe that the Lord is able to repair the severed relationship and when He does, I will once again have another wonderful testimony to tell others. Nothing is beyond God’s reach and this is the prayer of my heart for the coming year.

Psalm 107:2

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story- those He redeemed from the hand of the foe.

Just wait. It is going to happen. I know deep down in my heart.

Love connects

Love can restore and repair

Love is the ultimate sacrifice

Help me Lord to love others as well as myself as you want me to. Help the blinders to come off and see the wounds and the pain of others hearts. Help me to not be cold and distant, but warm and loving. You are the guiding force in my life everyday and I ask you to continue to lead me down the roads you have for me and to open the doors that need to be opened. Heal the pain of broken relationships and help us to bind to each others hearts as you have called us to do.

LOVE

Psalm 23: 6

Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Keep Walking

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P. J. Di Benedetto

When we learned to walk as a baby, it was tough at times. We often fell down, cried or even through a fit, but over time we still learned to walk.

Our parents would offer us help and encouragement, but even that couldn’t teach us how to walk. Walking just basically required us “doing” the work to learn the process. One step at a time. Then one day we were walking more than a few step at a time and before long we were running with other children. Walking isn’t something we knew when we were born, but through trial and error, we eventually learned the steps to becoming more independent.

Now, when we think about the Christian walk. It is basically the same process. We don’t have any clue how to face the struggles life hands us, but over time we learn to use our faith even in the deepest pits of life. No life is a bowl of cherries. We all face hardships, difficulties and pain in this life;whether of our own doing or someone else’s. Life can hand us pain unimaginable at times. I know in my own life, I can certainly attest to that.

As a child I never knew how much pain I was carrying around because it seemed normal. Yet, over time the shoving the pain down began to manifest itself in the way of anxiety, fear, and eventually agoraphobia. This certainly was not the life I dreamed of as a child. Life became unbearable, yet I saw no way out. The roller coaster only intensified after the murder/suicide of my grandparents.

I am giving you that example because I can certainly relate to trials, pain and tragedies, yet over time I had to learn that my life wasn’t going to change unless I changed.

Changed my thoughts

Changed how I let the past control me

Changed relationships and the power they held

Began to trust and believe in myself

I can never change the pain of the past, the loss of loved ones to horrible tragedies, but I have learned that I must

Keep Walking

Even when it is hard

Even when the path is unclear

Even when the naysayers are loud

Even when the end seems so far away

Nothing in life is easy and usually the sweetest accomplishments are the hardest fought.

Praying for you today to feel God’s love and His peace. He has a wonderful plan for you. Love to each of you.

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Choose to Believe

Choose to Believe

We all have choices to make each day.

Choices to believe

or not to believe

Choices whether to love or hate

Forgive or hold onto to unforgiveness

Grow or remain stagnant

Live or Die

Believe in God

or

Deny God

For me, many of these are easier than others. One that will never change will be to BELIEVE IN GOD. I have faced 3 suicides, a murder, abuse, neglect, car wrecks, anxiety, fear, agoraphobia, loss of jobs, friendships, as well as other tragedies, but through it all I have never stopped believing in God. My faith has been shaken but no denying God has stepped in more than once to protect, guide, and love me through it all.

Believe in God

Even when it is hard

Even when you want to give up

Lean into HIM

Praying for you today. Lean into HIM and HIS love for you. It is unconditional and full of peace if you trust HIM and HIS plan. HIS plan will always be best. Life happens but nothing is out of HIS control.

CHOOSE TO BELIEVE

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Heart Full of God’s Peace

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I love this picture.

Hearts full of God’s peace, even in the midst of turmoil and chaos.

We have a choice.

Live a life with a walled off heart or a life full of God’s peace and full of God’s love.

I lived for many years a life with a walled off heart, yet over the last 3 years God has done a tremendous work in my heart and mind.

More importantly, He has allowed me to learn to accept myself, love myself and be happy.

During this process, I have learned to love others more deeply and from a place of trust.

Life can throw us curve-balls in the way of:

financial crisis

death of loved ones

friendships that are severed

employment crisis

Yet, even in the midst of chaos, God is there.

Our hearts are designed to love and to be loved in return

What is holding you back from having a heart full of God’s peace and of God’s love?

You are valuable

You are beautiful

You are chosen

You are HIS

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Love Is Safe

Love is Safe

Do you agree with that statement?

I know personally that for years I truly believed that love was painful, hurtful and full of anger, yet over the last 30 years of being married to Mike, I have learned a different definition of love.

Oh, of course our story has not been perfect or free from hurt or pain, but I know the definition I have learned from being with Mike, is totally different from the “LOVE” my parents, siblings and other extended family has shown me.

Their love was exhibited in anger, abuse, neglect and damage to others I love or have loved.

This is not LOVE.. This is Hate and not anything I want to be a part of.

The love I have learned in the last 30 years will never make up for the lack of love and acceptance I didn’t receive in my childhood or teenage years, but a life well lived is often the best revenge.

I will not lose any more of my life to people that only wish to hurt me.

What are your views on this? Do you agree or are you a person that feels we are to stay connected to family no matter what they do or say?

I believe my life is so much better than theirs that they just cannot handle the reality of it.

I am not boasting.. I am just stating a fact.

They do not want me healed, happy or whole, yet God has called me out the past fear, anxiety, and agoraphobia just for that reason. I truly believe if God and I had not a “meet to” I would not be in the place I am in at this time. I probably would be dead due to the mental anguish I was constantly in because of the fear and anxiety.

God did a huge work in the life of a sinner when He healed me from the past abuse, neglect and fear, but when He told me ” You cannot go back”, I knew that I had to have boundaries.

Love is Safe.

Not perfect; Just safe.

Today, I want to offer you hope. Nothing you have faced in the past or even today is ever wasted, but I also know that God does not want me or you to keep going back to the “waste”, but to move forward to the place God has called us to be today. The past is over and all we have is today. You and I are both more than conquerors with Christ in our corner. I keep pushing forward and seeking the will of God. The enemy keeps trying but I keep fighting. How about you? Are you going to give up or keep fighting? Our God is bigger than anything the enemy can throw at us. Don’t forget that.. Fight and Win…

Loving and Changing

mike and angie3Love Changes, yet often stays the same. God calls us to love deeply, but to also to continue to grow. We cannot become stagnant in our lives; whether in marriage, raising our children or being a great employee.

We must step out and seek the best God has for us.

Life is to be lived to the fullest.

After 30 years of marriage, I am still learning more and more about our lives together and about Mike.

But more importantly, I am learning about myself.

From an 18-year-old wife, mom and daughter in law in one fell swoop, to a 48-year-old wife, mom, grandmother and daughter in law…

I have learned that God requires me to seek the best, even in the worst situations. My normal tendency is to look at the negatives instead of the positives, but that is something I was taught as a child. Tendency from genetics and environment to look at the negative.

Yet, God says to believe the best in all situations. Even when we think it is over, He can make it new.

He has done that for me in my relationships in many instances; especially in 2006 when we were on the verge of divorce.

Nothing is impossible with God. Luke 1: 37

I wanted a different marriage and a different life for myself as well as my family, yet often I failed.
Didn’t know any different, yet God has done a tremendous work in my life as well as my marriage.

How about you?

What did you learn from your growing up years that you carried over to your family and marriage?

What goals did you make for yourself in reference to your home life and relationships to have a different outcome?

I believe that God can change any willing person; whether a woman, man or child. God wants our hearts and also wants the best for us.

We will fall short at times, but that doesn’t mean we need to give up.

Keep the goal in your forefront.

Take steps each day to love more deeply, talk more sweetly and to forgive more easily.

Thankful today for the love of a good, Godly man, who has richly blessed me. He has believed in me when I didn’t believe in myself, but more importantly he has loved me when I wasn’t loveable.

Love you, Mike

Together: Five Minute Friday

Together

Together we share

Together we laugh

Together we love

Together we grieve

Together we stand

Together we believe

Together we pray

Today I am standing in awe.

Because in exactly two weeks my husband and I will be celebrating our 30th wedding anniversary. It awes me because we were only 16 and 18 years old when we married and then 17 and 18 when we had our son, Wade.

Crazy, isn’t it?
Family and friends told us we wouldn’t even make it one year, so I guess we showed them. Ha.

Laughing as I go.

Life has been a struggle at times but there has been much joy as well. Life can deal us a hard hand at times, but I am thankful that I have been able to walk this life with my husband, Mike. We have been through births, deaths, tragedies, travel, new jobs, moves, crisis with our children, death of parents. On and On.

Yet, we have stood the test of time and stood along side of each other walking TOGETHER.

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