Restless for More

My heart is restless for more

More freedom

More dreams

More hope

More love


What are you restless for?

I love this quote

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Our hearts will always be restless until we rest in HIM.

Our lives are in unrest because we live in a fallen world, full of pain, heartache and tragedy, yet God has more.

When we rest in Him and His love, our restless heart and soul will be a peace.

The world can abound in unrest, but our lives will be at peace.

Over the last year and half, I have found myself more at peace and less restless than I have in many years.

Yet, that doesn’t stop the natural tendency to want to have more of this life God has given us to live.

And I plan to live big..

Full of love, freedom, hope and dreams.



If the son sets you free, you are truly free. John 8:32

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More of HIM so I am less RESTLESS.

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To Walk in Love


To Walk in Love

Father, in Jesus’ name, I thank You that the love of God has been poured forth in my heart and life through the Holy Spirit. I love Your Word and without it, I would be lost. The love You have for me, Lord has perfected and completed me and I am thankful that I can say ” Perfect love casts out all fear. “

Today, Lord I am committing to walk in love that only can come from you. I endure long and I will be patient and kind. I will not be envious and allow the worldly jealousy to take over my mind and heart. I will not be boastful nor will I behave in a manner that would be considered rude or unbecoming. You have total control over me and the words I speak from this point forward. Keep my heart and mind in check, but more importantly, keep my words in line with You and Your Word.

I will not take account of any evil done to me and I will not pay attention to the suffering I will endure. You will repay evil and restore all that has been lost in my life due to the evil others have done. You will restore over and over to me. I will continue to persevere in my life and the freedom you have given me after years of living with anxiety and fear. The past will have no power over me or my family any longer. We are set free from the past and the shame others have tried to lay at our feet and upon our heads, hearts and minds.

We are overcome with the power of the blood and the words of our mouths.

Father, I will bless and pray for those who persecute me- and who are cruel in their attitude toward me. I bless them and do not curse them. You are in charge of the outcome of them and their lives. My love will abound more and more through You and the Holy Spirit working in my life.

Everywhere I will go I commit to plant seeds of love. I thank You, Father, for preparing the hearts of those that I will encounter that they will be prepared to receive my love. Prepare their hearts. Guide me to those in need of love today.





Lord, today and everyday, guide me and help me to stay on track to love others as You have called me to do.

Recap 11/9 My Detour into Deception

Always Faithful

In case you missed the show, here’s the podcast.

Wow, what a trip, sitting here in the studio, telling the story of my detour into deception. So much I had to leave out, but so much I was able to share of God’s incredible faithfulness to restore what the enemy stole from me.


He truly IS faithful, and proves it over and over as I walk this journey of faith.

To read the “whole story” about my detour into deception and all that has happened since my deliverance 2 years ago this weekend, visit www.notafraidtotellmystory.com.

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Love; My Word for 2014

Love requires action as well as patience. I often forget the last part of that sentence. Yet, when I decided to focus on the word LOVE for 2014, I want to remember that God loves me, so I need to love others with the same type of love.

This is often hard because I am human. I am certainly not perfect, nor am I GOD; the one and only creator of the universe. I am a flawed human being, who makes mistakes every day of my life. I tend to lose my temper too easily and often expect perfection of those in my life, yet I need to remember that these same folks are patient, loving and offer me grace on a daily basis.

I remember as a young mom I would fret and fret about trying to keep my house looking “perfect” which was almost impossible with two sons running around. I would beat myself up because the “perfect” I so wanted and dreamed of seemed to be impossible to obtain. I was often way too hard on my boys and made many mistakes in this situation as well as others. No person is a perfect parent either and I certainly know that I made huge mistakes. Things I regret. Things I wish I could take back. But all I can do is ask for forgiveness and apologize. Lessons are often hard learned.

Lessons in love are often hard learned.


Growing up in a dysfunctional, none affectionate home, love was something I could not quiet comprehend, which also led to many hard lessons as a mother and wife.

Love was something I feared in many ways, yet so desperately wanted in my life. I wanted to experience the love of children and for my children to feel loved. To never doubt my love for them, but in many ways I failed. Life has a way of creeping in and causing the past to weave it’s way into the present. The past could not be held at bay any longer. The choices of those who committed suicide or took the life of my grandmother in a suicide/murder affected all of the family. Love was still an underlying presence but it was not the focus as it should have been. Life was hard and the road was rocky. Filled with stickers and lots of bumps, yet through it all the love I had for my husband and children never changed. It had always been in my heart, yet the enemy had used the painful circumstances to get my eyes focused on the hurt instead of the wonderful blessings I was privileged to have as part of my life.

Love is a word that is so full of meaning and often means different things to different folks.


I want to be remembered as a woman, wife, mother and grandmother who never let the painful past to hold her down, nor allowed the enemy to continue to severe relationships that are meant to be for life.

The enemy will not be able to win this battle. LOVE will prevail and the lives of those torn away will be redeemed and restored. Relationships will win and the love I have for my family will always persevere.

God has a beautiful plan for LOVE in the lives of believers.

We must seek HIM and the plan HE has for our lives.

The plan HE has for my life is:
Restored relationships

Love abounding

and that the past will no longer have any power over my life or the lives of my family.

We are overcomers and the LORD has called us to be a family.

I pray that whatever you are facing today will not keep you bound to the past. Look to the Lord and always remember that if He calls you to it, He will help your through it. Life can be challenging at times but just because you are in a battle today does not mean that tomorrow the Lord can turn everything around. God is so powerful and He has such a blessed life for us as His children. Please don’t give up on the problem or challenge you are facing today. Continue to seek HIM and HIS plan. He will line it all up and everything will come together.

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My One Word 2014

I have noticed much of the Internet has been a buzz about choosing a word to focus on for the year. Last year I read the book by Rachel Olsen, which was a great book. She offered some great ideas about listening to God and searching for the “right” word to focus on for the year.

In 2013, I focused on the word FREE. God has done amazing things in my life over the last year and the freedom I enjoy now is like night and day from the previous years. After living with anxiety and panic attacks, as well as agoraphobia most of my life, freedom always seemed elusive, yet over the last year and half, I have seen newness in the everyday.

The simple things of being able to be alone at home or driving the store alone, or going to Wal-Mart alone all seem like such simple things to others, yet they were so very difficult for me in the past. The freedom God has given me is so sweet and I am forever thankful.

The past few weeks I have been praying about the one word that I want to focus on and have several that felt like the “right” ones but then over time, it seemed that God was leading me in a new direction.

For about 18 months, there has been a very close relationship of mine that has been severed and often seemed beyond repair. My God has bigger plans though and this coming year I am going to focus on the word:



I want all I do to be done in love. I want every relationship I have to be seen through the filter of love; both mine and the Lord’s. I know God has brought me to a new place in my life as well as the relationships I currently have, but through the year of 2014, I want to have a deeper love for those God sends my way as well as the relationships I already have. I truly believe that the Lord is able to repair the severed relationship and when He does, I will once again have another wonderful testimony to tell others. Nothing is beyond God’s reach and this is the prayer of my heart for the coming year.

Psalm 107:2

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story- those He redeemed from the hand of the foe.

Just wait. It is going to happen. I know deep down in my heart.

Love connects

Love can restore and repair

Love is the ultimate sacrifice

Help me Lord to love others as well as myself as you want me to. Help the blinders to come off and see the wounds and the pain of others hearts. Help me to not be cold and distant, but warm and loving. You are the guiding force in my life everyday and I ask you to continue to lead me down the roads you have for me and to open the doors that need to be opened. Heal the pain of broken relationships and help us to bind to each others hearts as you have called us to do.


Psalm 23: 6

Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.


Every Friday there are tons of other bloggers, writers that link up with

http://lisajobaker.com/ to write for five minutes about a particular word.

Today’s prompt is FIGHT.


In the realm of this life, there are times we must fight as well as times to lay down our swords and surrender.


For years, I often would lay down my sword when I really should have been picking it up and fighting harder for the lives of my loved ones but more importantly, for my own soul. The soul that needed to be set free.

Yet, I would lay down and wait for the enemy to take more and more of my life and the lives of my family. Well, no more. The enemy has a fight on his hands from this point forward. After years of struggling with fear and anxiety, as well as agoraphobia I am no longer the weak woman that he faced in battle before.

Today, I am the strong woman who God has equipped for battle. How about you? Are you ready to fight for your own life but also the lives of your loved ones? Today let us stand ready for battle and never give the enemy another inch.

I am ready for battle.

With the Lord on my side, I will win.

Exodus 14:14
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.

God is a Redeemer


Photo Credit: P. J. Di Benedetto

Redemption is a powerful word.
Redeemed from our past

Redeemed from pain

Redeemed from loss

Redeemed from relationships lost

Redeemed from the curse

We live in a fallen world. Pain is enevitable but God is the ultimate redeemer. He has the power to turn anything around. Nothing is beyond HIS control. He lives a life fulfilling the Father’s will. The Father wants the best for us, but often our own choices can cause us to go down the wrong path. Mistakes are made. Choices cannot be undone, but the power of the Lord has the capacity to change everything.

What we once thought was lost and un-redemptive can be restored to a more beautiful place than we originally even thought was possible.
Nothing is lost in this life.

The hardest lessons are often the ones where we face the most pain.

I pray that the losses in my own life will one day be redeemed and restored to a more beautiful place.

Today, what can I pray for you about? Leave your request in the comments and I would be happy to pray for you. God loves to have us pray for one another.

God Bless You today in your Journey to find JOY

52 Praise and Thanks

I am sharing today 10 of the 52 Praise and Thanks for this past year. Each year, our God gives us 52 weeks in the year and often we get so caught up in the daily grind which causes us to forget his new mercies.

I want to take the time to remember the praises and thanks that I have for the last year.. There are more than 52, but I am going to narrow down the list..

In the weeks leading up to Christmas and the New Year, I will share more of my list. I hope you will take the time to remember all of the blessings and gifts God gives you each day. His mercies are new every morning.

mike    1. My love for the last 30 years, Mike 

A wonderful husband, father and provider. We have been married since he was 16 years old and I was 18 years old. No one thought we would make it but here we are, 30 years later.

2. Our son, Chancechance2

3. Thankful, for the God who set me free and allowed me to have eternal life in the Heavens with Him.

Penny4. My best girl, Penny. Isn’t she cute? She is 7 months old and so smart.

5. A Godly Grandmother, Inetha. She was murdered in 1996 by my step-grandfather who took his life as well. Such a tragic end to a wonderful life. She led me to the Lord in 1976 at Fairview Baptist Church.


6. Extended family which includes nieces, nephews and cousins. Too many to name. These are my great-nieces.


7. Old and new friends. Here are some of our friends when we took a trip to San Antonio and Austin together.


8. That I am REDEEMED by the blood of the Lamb. Set FREE forever


9. I am most thankful for the life I have. I once was a fearful, anxious, agoraphobic woman who now lives a life free from fear and anxiety. God has done a tremendous work in my life and I am excited to see the next step in HIS plan for me. One goal I have is to complete the book I am writing about my journey. Working title is ” When Your House becomes a Prison; a life of an agorphobic”cropped-free4.jpg

10. Thankful for a job which provides food, a home and clothes to wear. God has always taken care of me and my family.

I will share 10 more in the next few weeks before Christmas. Always remember that you are loved by the Lord with such a deep, everlasting love. Nothing can seperate you from HIM and HIS love.

Moving Forward

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Wednesday, I fasted and prayed.

I believe God heard my prayers, so now I must wait.

The battle has been long and difficult, but I am not going to give up or give into the enemies lies.
My God did not set me free so that I could go back into the darkness again.

He called me to heal the brokenhearted and to offer hope to those in a place of darkness.

So, now I must move forward with the call God has placed on my life.

It won’t be easy because I know that each step I take forward, the enemy is waiting in the wings to want me to go two steps back.

Not going to happen.

This girl has faced more in her life than most will ever be able to comprehend, yet I am a fighter, an over-comer and a believer that no matter what happens, my God is ultimately in control.

Today I stand on the promises and wait for the answers.

There are lives and hearts at stake but God sees it all and understands exactly the anguish my heart is in, but it will not be for nothing.

My testimony will once again be for the LORD and HIS work in my life.

Moving Forward, but waiting.

You Are Beautiful

God calls you beautiful.

Beauty is fleeting in the worlds standards, but in God’s eyes, you are beautiful. From the moment you were just a twinkle in your parents eyes, God has loved you.

He sees you perfectly beautiful, full of possibility and totally cherished.

God sees YOU.

The real you; not the YOU the world, friends or family has told you that YOU are or were.

God doesn’t see your past, nor does HE listen to the static words of what others have said to you or about you. No one else’s opinions matter to God, other than HIS own.

He understands that the words of the past often haunt you, but He doesn’t give your past any power because once we accept Jesus Christ into our hearts and lives; our past is as far as the east is to the west.  (Gone forever)

HE is the designer of YOU and YOUR potential.

You are beautiful

You Are Beautiful

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P. J. Di Benedetto

Text added by Angie Webb

Don’t doubt your worth.

Trust God knew best when He created you.

Love yourself and always want the best.

Don’t settle for less than the best.


Lord, I ask that you touch the reader today and help them to know their value in Your eyes. Help us to remember that You designed us perfectly beautiful. We are not mistakes nor are we the past we often tend to carry around behind us. We are set free to live our lives following in the call that You instilled in our hearts from the moment we were created. No person is lost in Your eyes. Each one hold value that is unmeasurable by the worlds standards; but we need to remember that our lives are to be lived by Your standard. Value. Purpose. Beautiful. Free. Happy. Making a difference.

Remember folks, WE WIN. The end of the story is already written and the enemy will not succeed in winning this battle. Stand strong and take the time to look in the mirror today to remind yourself: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.

Praying for each of you today.


Trusting in Him,


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