Eyes on God

orange flower oswald chambers

Oswald Chambers: We have to pray with our eyes on God, not on the difficulties.

This life is harsh.
This life is painful at times.
This life is anxiety filled at times.
This life is difficult.
This life is challenging.
This life is demanding of our time.
In this life we will see a fallen world; YET, GOD IS ALIVE

Yet, when we trust in God and allow our eyes to stay fixed on Him and His Word, life can and will be so much more relaxed, peaceful, joyful and simple. Taking our eyes off of God and His Word will allow all of the above to overshadow His plan and His purpose for anything and everything we face in this life.

Oh, I know life can be a struggle at times and challenging, but I sure would rather be walking through this life with God by my side and Jesus in my heart, than walking through life struggling all alone.


I have been handed my share of difficulties in this life… more than I would ever wish on my worst enemy. I don’t know if that means God trusts me to handle what He has allowed to enter my life or if He is wanting me to learn a lesson I have yet to learn. I don’t really know…

One thing I can be sure of though: Even when I have doubted His goodness and His faithfulness, both were still there waiting for me to grab on for dear life.

Goodness and Mercy have followed me according to Psalm 23:6, even when I have doubted.

Psalm 23:6
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.

Many a time I have sat on the floor begging and pleading for God to change the outcome of a situation I have been faced with, whether it was the loss of my grandmother to murder or the loss of relationship with my son or the loss of my “life” due to my anxiety and agoraphobia. Many a times, I have felt like He has not heard me and my begging, but in the end I have to trust that He knows best.

Over a period of time things just began to finally line up for me to begin walking on the path to finding freedom from my anxiety, depression and agoraphobia. I am not sure what changed other than myself. I have lived with each of those from as early of an age as 4 or 5 years old. I have never known a time in my adult/teenage years that I have not struggled, so for freedom in any form is such an awesome feeling.. Words can’t describe the joy I feel..

God didn’t change.
God didn’t leave.
God didn’t move.
God didn’t turn a deaf ear.
God knew the time and place that my healing would happen. I just had to be patient and allow Him to set in motion all of the “pieces” that needed to be in place. Maybe it was my stubborness or my pride that kept me bound for so long. I know that part of the problem was my lack of trust in God and His love for me. Some was trying to hold onto the ashes of my past instead of letting God have all of that as well.

I don’t know why it took so long, but today I am thankful that I am in a better place and on the journey to enjoying life.

I am learning to keep my EYES on GOD and not the anxiety of life or the difficulties of life.


Today,my friend I want to offer you hope and a word of encouragement. Keep praying. Keep seeking God and His Word for your situation. Nothing is impossible for God. Maybe today it won’t happen, but that does not mean it can’t happen tomorrow or the next day. God is not the author of confusion ( 1 Corinthians 14:33), so stay focused, peaceful and allow God to take the reigns of your life. He knows best. Hugs to each of you today.


Life Is a Theatre

Life is a theatre

Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives. There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a DISTANCE. it is amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of, or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going-anywhere relationships/friendships.

Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention. Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or don’t really understand, know or appreciate you?

The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you… the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of YOUR LIFE.

” If you cannot change the people around you, Change the people you are around.” (not sure of source)

Remember that the people we hang with have an impact both our lives and our income. And so we must be careful to choose the people we hang out with, as well as the information with which we feed our minds. We should not share our dreams with negative people, nor feed our dreams with negative thoughts.

It is your choice and your life. It is up to you, who and what you let in..



Broken and Beautiful

Broken: According to, broken is defined as:

not functioning properly

ruptured, torn or reduced to fragments

Life sometimes hands us our life in broken pieces. Maybe it wasn’t intentional on our part, but we just end up having so many broken pieces that we don’t know if we will ever recover. Pieces are not wasted in God’s eyes.

Even when we it appears that nothing more can be done in our lives, God is still there working behind the scenes to continue to draw us closer to Him, make us more like Him and lead us on the path that HE designed for each of us personally.

Broken pieces can come in more forms such as:

  1. divorce
  2. suicide
  3. murder
  4. adulter
  5. wayward children
  6. financial pressures
  7. dysfunction in extended family
  8. employment issues
  9. health issues
  10. faith issues

Nothing in this life is going to be easy, yet often as Christians we believe we are immune to problems; or we should be. But God says in this life we will have trials and tribulation according to James 1:2. Trials are part of life, unfortunately. Broken pieces often result from these same trials, but that does not mean God cannot later use them for His glory and His good just as it says in Romans 8:28. ” And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” God’s purpose is always for our good, even when we feel the world is crumbling around us.

I know, personally this feeling on many levels. When I lost my brother-in-law to suicide. Then again when I lost my grandmother to murder by my grandfather, who then took his own life. My world certainly felt like it was crumbling to the ground during those times, but I have also had health issues, financial issues, dysfunction in my family, employment problems and on and on just like most everyone else.

Yet, today I can tell you that none of the “broken” have resulted in my life being any less valuable to God and I am finally understanding that is what has definetly made me the person I am today.

I want to offer you hope today.

  1. Remember, even when you feel the world is against you; God is for you.
  2. Even when you feel like you can’t go another day in the situation you are in now; God is walking beside you holding your hand.
  3. Even if you aren’t sure where your next meal will come from; God is going to provide.
  4. Even if you are not sure if you are loved; God sent His only son to die on the cross for YOU so you are definetly loved.

I want to leave you with a quote that I read many years ago and it has been one of my favorites.


Lord, You are our ever present help in times of need. We ask that you help us to see our broken places as a place for newness to begin. You have a good plan, even though at times we must go through pain to get to the BEST You have for us. Help us to not lose hope or faith but to continue to move forward in our walk you have set us on at this time. Our future is still open and the possibilites are endless for what our lives hold, even from the broken. I am thankful Lord that even when I felt that the broken was the end of me, You once again picked me up and led me to a “new” place in my life. Help those reading this to find the same hope in YOU Lord.